I had this same problem too and still feel the same sometimes. thought I'd try out this forum because I know I'm not the only one and I just want to talk about it but it's impossible for me to do it face to face. I don't know what to do i could talk to someone but im horrible with talking about that stuff face to face I can never get the words out. Most days I just sit there wishing I was normal and it's really effecting my grades, I barley do any work in class and I have no direction in life.
He doesn't seem to mind and thinks it's kind of funny but it just kills me inside know that I can never have a relationship with him. He knows I do because I told him when I was drunk. I've had a crush on my best friend for years now and this is probably one of the hardest things ive had to deal with. When my friends talk about girls I feel so empty and sad that I will never be able to feel what they are, and that I can't let my emotions out to them without a awkward stigma in the room. It's not because people take it badly it's just the thought of never being 'normal' and having a family and kids is killing me on the inside. But some days I feel like I want back in the closet. It's went really well and he has supported me through this and help me tell others. Hi I about 6 months ago I came out for the first time to a good friend.
